M Y  R E A L I T Y

Hello my dearest friend,

 

Please, 

take a seat.

 

So you ask me „Who am I?“

 

Well, most of all I love to observe. I like to watch people and my environment.

I love to add experiences and perspectives of others to mine and so I love to read. 

I pursue to reach a global, holistic knowledge and wisdom, for what I always keep widening the fields of my interest. 

My curiosity is endless. 

It started with topics like, human psychology, biology, sociology, astrology, math, spirituality, science and arts, later it grew with tech and nature.

My process always starts with the question „Why?“ and I am determined to find out the answer. I start to see, that for the wisdom I am looking for I must give up the superficial and must dive into it deeper. I enjoy being sucked up into the underground and I am surprised when new worlds and universes open up. I discover and understand connections, which make me more hopeful and maniac. A lot of times sad and disillusioned. I reach a point where I feel, my hard work pays off and I finally start to see a light at the end of a tunnel. 

The light of the truth. It is getting bigger and it shines towards me. 

Restless and shaken, I continue to walk with my last remained energy towards it.

 

Just to find out, 

there is nothing. 

Nothing and everything 

are the same thing.

In silence. 

In silence, this is how I reach my freedom. 

My moments of pure happiness. 

Alone and together, 

being. 

 

And I realize, 

this moment

is only mine.

 

Look! This is how the sky looks different. This is how the world seems more peaceful.

This is how the lights are covering me in their arms. 

This is how the sounds are getting closer and familiar. 

So I put on my lovely shirt, I stroke my cat

and while Im holding my coffee, 

I just sit down.

For this one and only moment.

You see,

this is how I become truly me. 

Nobody and everybody.

In the reality I belong to.

 

This moment, 

is only mine.

 

Until, again 

I ask 

„Why?“

 

And I keep spinning around

Until I die. 

Eventually we All must become ourselves

Eventually we must give up all our faces.

Slowly taking off all the layers

and become someone

we were running away for so long.

 

It is scary

being naked.

But eventually there is nothing more left,

nothing more to try.

 

As we are alone

eventually

standing before that one way we can go

we know,

it´s time to go.

 

To finally become ourselves.

 

And so the journey began.

The pain is released, 

the memories are alive

and on destroyed grounds

 

you walk first shameful

because you are used to

walk in lies.

 

But in emptiness

your real strength starts to grow.

 

Until you become now

the future and the past,

in harmony. 

Im standing in dirt

As I´m standing in mountains of rubbish,

all I can see is piles of garbage.

The winds blow into my face

and I smell the disgusting smells caused by my race.

 

Im trying to breath 

but I inhale dirt.

I tried to stay clean

but I only got more hurt.

 

Dirty and wounded, 

humiliated and fooled

I´m standing bounded

by their rules.

 

They want me to bend,

they want me to break

but I still choose standing 

proud and straight.